Why Chaos Witch

I am forty eight years old. Libra sun, Leo Moon, and Scorpio Ascending. I am unclear how the moon and ascending works but I am definitely a Libra and its attributes. About four years ago I really got into Tarot and used it to guide me spiritually as a Christian. Then I felt I had to be more than just Christian. I felt following Hecate was for me and I researched bought the books and quickly realized that deity work is not for me. I wanted to be Wiccan next but no “type” of witch fit me. I am not a garden type, a glamour, or even an eclectic, but I hadn’t found any information about being a chaos witch other than reading the words.

I stopped for a year reading Tarot or doing anything occultic But I refused to get rid of my collection as well Hell it was a lot of money and I can be very indecisive. I stumbled on a tarot deck review of The Nameless Tarot by XIA Hunt and was mesmerized by what sigils could do. I impulsively purchased the deck then the grimoire. Can I just say I am in LOVE though over my head right now. I am going to study it this year though and amazingly I am pretty good at deciphering the majors.

Now that leads me to how creation had me stumble on chaos magic. I wanted to learn more of their purpose and charging them and activating them. I found a few videos on YouTube and BOOM the principles of Chaos which rang so true to my bones and soul. I am now learning and invested in this Wicca lifestyle. I can’t express how at home I feel in “it” — beyond words.

I created my first sigil. I charged it and activated. It was to manifest that I would be successful at a job I applied for. I felt at peace as I was so anxious about wanting it. Then a simple thought became my existence. I didn’t want that job it would no way be a good fit for me and I was to pursue another career move. This was two weeks ago and on the sixth…. I start that new job and feel complete at peace which is a miracle as I am usually very nervous and anxious. Looking forward to the future was something I haven’t in awhile but finally this year — I feel ready to be my true self.